The day before my 2nd LAP

So, I'm wondering through the grocery store getting last minute things so I won't have to worry about it post-op. Things like... milk, eggs, sugar... beer. Oh yeah, can't forget the beer. My husband would have a caniption fit. So anyway, I had been talking on the phone back and forth with the RE's office and the hospital people trying to nail down how much $ this surgery was gonna be. And since I would be a "self pay" then hopefully I could get a discount. Well the girl at the RE's office kept wanting to run it thru the insurance even though I told her that my insurance, after finding out about my 1st LAP and my IF, put a big fat Rider of Infertility on my policy. Anyway, the girl from the hospital finally called (the day before the big event - can't back out now) and told me it would cost $13 thousand... something, something and 52 cent (i've lost the little piece of paper that i had written this on)... and this was with the 40% dicount for being self-pay. And this didn't include the Anesthesiologist or my Dr.'s fee. So after I pick myself up off the grocery store floor, I ask her what I needed to do, how much do I need to put down on this. She told me 15% and that I could put it on a credit card. So, I frantically dig in my purse for the card and read her the numbers and all and we hung up and all was ok. But at that point I had to beeline it out of there (oh wait, had to get beer)... got to my car and just lost it pretty much. I gathered myself up (i'm getting pretty good at this) and drove home, took valium and a nap. When I woke up, I felt much better and figured, "well, it's too late to back out now. We'll just figure it out later."

The Beginning (Sort of)... The "Official" Beginning

Today... Sept 19th... first post. I will start with today and tell more history later. I went to my pre-op for my second lap. I am having my tubes removed because of bilateral hydrosalpinx. The surgery is set for next thursday, Sept 27th. It has been 2 1/2 years since my first lap and the bilateral hydros were first discovered. My docter opened them and drained the fluid, but an HSG a couple of weeks ago confirmed that they had reclosed and again filled with fluid. I am glad to finally be moving on to the next step. I have been living my life in 2 week increments for the last 4 years and can finally think about sex as sex and not as,,, "am i ovulating, is this maybe gonna be the one, the month, the time that i will finally get pg???" Anyway, I am kinda feeling a sigh of relief. Don't get me wrong, I do have anxiety as to the surgery and then moving on to ivf, but finally some sort of progress.

Ok, more later... any comments or thoughts and ideas would be appreciated. (not too much baby dust or woowoo and gaagaa, i'm not that kind of person)... It has been a long and drawn out 4 years of month after month dissapointment.